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Green Day Saved My Life
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[This essay was contributed by Alx. Thanks for sharing it! -Delfina]

yeah stereotypical teenager story, but quite true.

i was lonely, depressed, and considering suicide at the young age of 12. the pressure to be the perfect “all-American” girl was too much. i didn’t want to be that kind of girl, i wanted to stand out for being me. i was transitioning in my life and ways, but i had no direction. i had 2 friends, none of which were much help to my problems, and i wasn’t sure that i could trust them since i had issues trusting people considering how bitchy pre-teen to teenage girls desperate for attention and popularity could be.

one day, my friend called me right when i was planning how i was going to kill myself and said “hey dude! come over! you have got to see this hot guy in this music video!”

i’m like ok, whatever. so i proceeded to her house and she turned on the American Idiot music video and pointed out the “hot guy” which turned out to be Billie Joe. i was amazed. not just at the beauty of the band members, or how cool the video was, but at the lyrics. the lyrics were understandable and real to me. rap and hip/hop was all about being a hoe and conforming to that slutty lifestyle so you can get sex. i didn’t like that and these lyrics were music to my ears.
FYI…before seeing the video, i had heard Green Day music, but not as often as i could. having no CD player and no MP3, i only listened to what my mom listened to, which was that rap crap and International Superhits (my first Green Day CD).

I began to get into Green Day, just as they were getting insanely popular with their new CD. then i heard Boulevard of Broken Dreams. it spoke to me, i related so well to it. it made me realize that if these amazingly talented rock stars were writing about this, then there must be a lot of people feeling this way. so i ran out and bought American Idiot. i listened to the entire CD that night and loved it.

i related so well to all of the lyrics, so i felt obligated to buy more Green Day albums.
to make an incredibly long story a little bit shorter, i became obsessed and kicked my depression. none of my friends, not even the one who showed me the video, get why i’m so obsessed with Green Day. i’m not ready to tell any of them, but when i tell them, maybe they will stop saying “dude. lay off the Green Day.”

i am forever grateful to Green Day for saving my life. even though they don’t know it.

February 20, 2008 at 5:31 pm [ Category: Essay, Personal ]

Comment from R February 20, 2008, 9:30 pm

One word: CAPITALIZE

Also, this tends towards the emo stereotype I hate. I’m in my early teens, but I deal with friendship problems without declaring depression. I love Green Day, but I despise people blowing teen angst out of proportion (it’s just a phase! It happens to everyone!). And I double-despise people saying Green Day saved their lives by singing Boulevard of Broken Dreams. Countless amazing bands are demeaned because of their insane fan bases- I’m hoping this won’t happen to Green Day.

Comment from Delfina February 20, 2008, 11:12 pm

R, just because it didn’t happen to you in the way that Alx described, it doesn’t make her experience any less real or any less valid. We have no way of knowing how painful someone else’s feelings of depression may have been. Many people of all ages can suffer from depression. I think she describes something that many Green Day fans, as well as many other people who are not fans of Green Day, can relate to.

Comment from R February 21, 2008, 5:02 pm

Teen angst does not equal depression, and the reckless claiming of depression that’s festered in this generation is the leading cause of the abuse and overprescription of antidepressants. Not to malign the powers of music, but therapy could have helped her just as much, probably more.

Comment from Diana February 22, 2008, 4:02 pm

the most important thing is that she’s fine now, and R, i think you should try to understand people, not to judge them.
hey Axl, you’re not alone… i’m 15 and got into Green Day when i was 13 (american idiot was a new hit) but then i researched and liked all their music… now i’m completely obsessed. just like you haha

Comment from Amy February 22, 2008, 4:11 pm

haha Diana, and Axl,
me too!
:D

Comment from tunny February 23, 2008, 6:58 pm

Same here
could it truly be I’m not the only fifteen year old that comes here?
=O

Comment from Amy February 23, 2008, 8:21 pm

im fourteen!…..
going on fifteen..

Comment from Alx February 23, 2008, 11:47 pm

sorry i didn’t captialize
and you don’t have to rip apart my story like that
:O
and it’s not axl
oh well. :)
AI wasn’t the first Green Day i had heard, but growing up around my mom’s rap kind of blocked out a lot of music that i love now.

Comment from R February 24, 2008, 4:29 pm

I didn’t ‘rip apart’ your story. I gave my input. Sorry if I offeneded you, but people like you offend me.

Comment from Jilly February 25, 2008, 2:21 pm

Alx, just ignore the people who are ‘offended’ by you (although I don’t see how you telling your story can offend someone!).
Delfina put my ‘confession’ on this site, and although I was not nearing suicidal, I was down in the dumps, and finding Green Day lifted me out of that. So whatever effect it has had on you can only be for the better.
Just keep listening and keep to the Green Day ethic that you do just what you want and don’t take any notice of what others think of you.

Comment from Diana February 25, 2008, 4:02 pm

oh i’m sorry Alx, i guess i’m kinda dyslexic or something

Haz el amor y no la guerra
:)

Comment from R February 25, 2008, 6:30 pm

I’m offended by people making self mutilation and “depression” societies norm, complaining about their mental illness while making no effort to quell it. Axel made no mention of seeking therapy.

Comment from Lillie February 26, 2008, 12:25 pm

I cant help agree with R. I my self am a teenager Im sad but not depressed to word is to lightly used if you want to see someone depressed come see my mom. I dont want to affend any one but this may sound a little rough but suck in up every one is a little sad youre no diffrent.

Comment from tunny February 27, 2008, 6:29 pm

seeing as she’s BETTER NOW.
we can all be nice and not bitch at each other, because who cares if she was or wasn’t depressed if she’s fine NOW.

Comment from R February 27, 2008, 7:05 pm

But she’s defending her previous state! That’s why I irritated. She isn’t saying, “Depressions bad and I dealt with it the wrong way.” All she’s saying is, “My life sucked, then I listened to a song and it stopped sucking.”

Comment from Lillie February 27, 2008, 11:01 pm

Look at Jesus of Suburbia(fav song by green day) the lyrics are connectioning to everyone but it seems to add to EVERYONE beliving their sooooo sad and R to at least me is right. Then alx did write something a lot of people can understend she just wanted people to know that Green Day helped her. Lets just shut up and smile!!!!!

Comment from Twets February 29, 2008, 2:40 pm

Music got this weird power to somehow help people in the most hard situations ^^
Green Day got this something that seems to say ‘hey,smile and don’t care about all that idiots out there who think they’re the best.’
Person who never felt depressed by something that happened, betrayed by friends(lost them all), ignored,not useful to the society etc.. won’t understand how music can safe a life.

Comment from R February 29, 2008, 6:21 pm

Dear God almighty- OF COURSE I’ve been betrayed by a friend, OF COURSE I’ve felt ignored, and OF COURSE I’ve felt not useful to society. THIS IS NATURAL. Every person feels this way. And music did help me whenever I was feeling sad.

But my problem is that Alx said she was “depressed” and the only thing she did was listen to Green Day. If Alx honest-to-God had the mental illness, she should have sought therapy. Music works wonders, but even it can’t magically rework your brain’s chemicals.

Comment from Twets March 1, 2008, 7:23 am

So you say that music can’t be some kind of therapy?
Depression is not a mental illness…
Therapy is not the best way.. well, if you want to spend lots of cash then oke..
In my case, Green Day made me think on my own. I was always doing what others told me too, said what they wanted to hear. Their music changed me and introduced to other awesome bands.
Music is the best therapy. Especially when the lyrics are true and it’s not a product of sweet plasctic dolls singing about cash and how pretty their are.

Comment from Lillie March 1, 2008, 12:24 pm

I think what shes(R) trying to say is she was to dramitic about it music does help but shes was a teenager not depressed. And Green Day my have helped her through her teenage angst. but if she was really depressed she would have done something.

Comment from R March 1, 2008, 2:53 pm

Depression is a mental illness. During it, the brain stops producing Seratonin, the chemical that causes happiness. Depression can be brought on by tragedy, pregnancy, insomnia, a sedentary lifestyle, or genes. It is not brought on by your friends backstabbing you with the popular girls. Do your research before blindly claiming things.

Therapy is a fantastic tool. Alx implied that she had no one to talk to, and that’s exactly what therapy is for- a third party person who listens to you and doesn’t judge you. I’ve gone during the rough patches of my life and I can’t tell you how great it feels to be able to be completely honest with someone. If therapy was not enough, Alx should have gotten anti-depressants.

When music is amazing, it’s effects are amazing- songs can change lives. But it should not be used to treat a mental disorder. I’ve said this about three times now. Please read what I say, it’s irritating when I have to repeat myself. And come up with new arguements.

Lilllie, that’s exactly what I’m saying, albeit a little harsher :)

Comment from tunny March 1, 2008, 8:20 pm

i find it shocking that we’ve just wasted 21 spots of comments arguing about depression. and as you said R, it’s annoying to keep repeating yourself so how about you just drop it? We’ve heard what you have to say, so now you can leave it.

Comment from R March 1, 2008, 9:57 pm

That’s sweet- I l-o-v-e love the way you passive aggresively single me out with the clever use of the word “we”, despite the fact another person agrees with me. And I like this site- so no, I won’t leave.

It’s a two way street, you know. “We” keep on responding to me. I personally think this is interesting, but “we” can stop posting anytime “we’d” like.

Also, if “we” could come up with an arguement beside “music is awesome”, that’d be stellar.

Comment from Alx March 3, 2008, 12:12 am

I had been depressed since age 9
i did see a therapist, but it didn’t help me.
i needed a connection, which i wasn’t getting in therapy. i had even been to 5 therapists.
and it wasn’t just one song that made me happy, it took a while. it took a few Green Day CDs to get me to be happy.
so there. are u satistfied R?

Comment from Delfina March 3, 2008, 4:28 am

I don’t think any of us can diagnose someone’s depression or lack of it from a short essay, nor are we able to prescribe, by reading a few paragraphs, what the best treatment would be. Depression is a complex issue, and it can affect different people in different ways, and different solutions may work well for some and not for others.

Comment from R March 3, 2008, 3:50 pm

That’s like having asthma, taking a couple puffs of inhaler, and saying your cured. Your right Delfina, depression is a complex issue. If she was “cured” by a “few Green Day CD’s”, chances are she was never depressed in the first place.

Comment from Lillie March 3, 2008, 4:22 pm

OK she should have never said she was depressed she was deeply sad(if that). Axl I dont want to single you out but if you were really depressed sence you were 9 a few songs would have not cured you all the way. Look at the world now it SUCKS. Maby the reason the world is in the place it is now is beacause were all to sensitive. Look a few months back that teacher got in a lot of trouble because she named a non living bear a name(cant remember the name) and the people of that religion were “offened”. Yes life is hard and yes music can help but if she was truly as depressed as she states music would not have helped as much as she said it did. Lets all talk about…Dogs!!!

Comment from shenanigans April 29, 2008, 6:03 am

hey dudes lay off her, at least she had the guts to tell her story. you cant tell her she dosen’t have depression because you dont even know her. I’d like to thank Green Day also, as they provide the world with the greatest music ever! peace out!

Comment from danielle knight July 14, 2008, 9:21 am

hi billie i am your number one fan i would love to come and see u but i cant get any tickets anywere i would love to have a picture with u to i love u my name is danielle louise knight

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